Well, it's the middle of my hell week and what am i doing? Writing my very first decent entry in my new blog. Yay! Haha. Anyway, i was supposed to like write a better welcome than this but then again laziness got in the way so it'll just be simple now as i'm in the middle of a week that potentially could make or break my college life. Naks.
I left my old journal, my beloved LJ, for the purpose of instilling in my mind a sense of beginning again. Of finally, finally eating away all the anger and angst inside me and trying to live a better life. A few weeks ago, i heard in this tv show of how this year is a good one for beginnings 'cause of some 20-year whatever which ended last year. Well, i hope it'll turn out to be true. I don't know but i just really hope that things will be better this time around and no more of that shitty stuff to happen to me. Well, cheers to a new blog and a new life!
Yesterday, we had our theology recollection and i was quite happy with my experience. I don't know but everytime i go on a retreat or recollection, i enjoy the time resting and contemplating on my life. And it's amazing 'cause everytime i nap when we're tasked to reflect, i wake up exactly at the time i'm supposed to wake up. (i'm bad at waking up right away fyi :)) But the better part is that i always feel refreshed and rejuvenated when i wake up! Sometimes, i even feel that it suffices more than all the sleeping time i have sandwiched between loads and loads of schoolwork. Minsan talaga, gusto ko na lang tumigil at magpahinga para mawala na lahat ng kumplikasyon sa buhay ko. And i really mean that. But then again, i think about my purpose of getting through college and i realize how much i need to finish decently. I want to attain that goal and i will no matter what it entails. Kapag naibalik ko na sa kanila ang nararapat, doon na ako mamamahinga. Right now, i really am not after comfort for my own life anymore. I know that i'll be satisfied one way or the other without too much. What i want is to provide my parents the life they deserve after they took care of me for so long. I'll always look back on this entry to remind me of my purpose in college everytime i feel tired and weak.
This is for my family. This is for their happiness.
I left my old journal, my beloved LJ, for the purpose of instilling in my mind a sense of beginning again. Of finally, finally eating away all the anger and angst inside me and trying to live a better life. A few weeks ago, i heard in this tv show of how this year is a good one for beginnings 'cause of some 20-year whatever which ended last year. Well, i hope it'll turn out to be true. I don't know but i just really hope that things will be better this time around and no more of that shitty stuff to happen to me. Well, cheers to a new blog and a new life!
Yesterday, we had our theology recollection and i was quite happy with my experience. I don't know but everytime i go on a retreat or recollection, i enjoy the time resting and contemplating on my life. And it's amazing 'cause everytime i nap when we're tasked to reflect, i wake up exactly at the time i'm supposed to wake up. (i'm bad at waking up right away fyi :)) But the better part is that i always feel refreshed and rejuvenated when i wake up! Sometimes, i even feel that it suffices more than all the sleeping time i have sandwiched between loads and loads of schoolwork. Minsan talaga, gusto ko na lang tumigil at magpahinga para mawala na lahat ng kumplikasyon sa buhay ko. And i really mean that. But then again, i think about my purpose of getting through college and i realize how much i need to finish decently. I want to attain that goal and i will no matter what it entails. Kapag naibalik ko na sa kanila ang nararapat, doon na ako mamamahinga. Right now, i really am not after comfort for my own life anymore. I know that i'll be satisfied one way or the other without too much. What i want is to provide my parents the life they deserve after they took care of me for so long. I'll always look back on this entry to remind me of my purpose in college everytime i feel tired and weak.
This is for my family. This is for their happiness.
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