Are my posts too long for anyone to endure to read? I asked a friend last night and he told me that he my entries seem too long. Well, I'm sorry if they seem too long but that's just how I write. At the beginning of each entry, I actually don't know how long I'm going to write for the day but I just type away until I feel satisfied with what I've written. It's OK if like people don't read everything as long as I'm satisfied with what I've done. Afterall, this journal should please me first rather than it please the others. Selfish but that's the purpose of blogging after all. You should blog about what you want to say and not what you want others to read, right?
Cool thing. Everytime I arrive home early in the afternoon, it seems that my body has entered into this routine. I'll arrive anytime before 3 then sleep at around that time. Then, the magic. I always find myself waking up at 6pm! Galing grabe! Wala lang, actually. Namangha lang ako. Haha.
After eating eating dinner, I decided to go to Starbucks and study there. Well, it seems my body has been accustomed to studying in Starbucks (expensive study habit!) so I just had to go there to jumpstart my study night. Since I was studying there, I borrowed my cousin's MP3 player. Obviously, it was for the purpose of drowning out the noise of people chatting endlessly. Argh, sometimes the noise gets too much for me that I cannot concentrate on what I'm studying but I can't just go home 'cause it's harder for me to study there because distractions and temptations thrive. So I studied for around an hour and 30 minutes and when I couldn't handle the noise, influx of people and information anymore, I decided to go home. Inside our village, I got the mp3 player out again, since I kept it inside my jacket the short time I was between Marquinton and our village, and listened. A few seconds in and I found myself strutting and swaying to...Britney Spears' Do Something. Don't blame me, that was my cousin's mp3 player...but the file was from our computer actually. haha. Wala lang kahit ako natawa sa sarili ko.
Anyway, I've never felt that relaxed and cheerful! I mean I was walking home and I had this giggly-wiggly feeling inside me that I just cannot control. Grabe for once, I felt so bubbly and happy. And I've never had that feeling since the time my problems started piling up. What a feeling! He'll just always give you the perfect time to chill and forget about any worries you have for the next days. Hope more instances like that come.
Final point. I've realized how we are happiest if we seek our endeavors in our truest state. To hell with norms and constraints. If there's nothing really wrong with what you want and what you plan to do to attain it, then go for it! Satisfaction is much more enjoyable if we harvest it from things we like to do. Things which reveal our true identity. Things which unleash our desires.
I just wish other people would cooperate though 'cause yeah you could satisfy those deepest desires if it only concerns you and you alone. But things get a whole lot more complicated if other people come into the picture. There should be a meeting of two deepest desires in order for ultimate satisfaction to work. Pursuing happiness at the expense of other people without sacrificing too much is one of the trickiest games we have to play so we have to be ultra-careful playing it.
Cool thing. Everytime I arrive home early in the afternoon, it seems that my body has entered into this routine. I'll arrive anytime before 3 then sleep at around that time. Then, the magic. I always find myself waking up at 6pm! Galing grabe! Wala lang, actually. Namangha lang ako. Haha.
After eating eating dinner, I decided to go to Starbucks and study there. Well, it seems my body has been accustomed to studying in Starbucks (expensive study habit!) so I just had to go there to jumpstart my study night. Since I was studying there, I borrowed my cousin's MP3 player. Obviously, it was for the purpose of drowning out the noise of people chatting endlessly. Argh, sometimes the noise gets too much for me that I cannot concentrate on what I'm studying but I can't just go home 'cause it's harder for me to study there because distractions and temptations thrive. So I studied for around an hour and 30 minutes and when I couldn't handle the noise, influx of people and information anymore, I decided to go home. Inside our village, I got the mp3 player out again, since I kept it inside my jacket the short time I was between Marquinton and our village, and listened. A few seconds in and I found myself strutting and swaying to...Britney Spears' Do Something. Don't blame me, that was my cousin's mp3 player...but the file was from our computer actually. haha. Wala lang kahit ako natawa sa sarili ko.
Anyway, I've never felt that relaxed and cheerful! I mean I was walking home and I had this giggly-wiggly feeling inside me that I just cannot control. Grabe for once, I felt so bubbly and happy. And I've never had that feeling since the time my problems started piling up. What a feeling! He'll just always give you the perfect time to chill and forget about any worries you have for the next days. Hope more instances like that come.
Final point. I've realized how we are happiest if we seek our endeavors in our truest state. To hell with norms and constraints. If there's nothing really wrong with what you want and what you plan to do to attain it, then go for it! Satisfaction is much more enjoyable if we harvest it from things we like to do. Things which reveal our true identity. Things which unleash our desires.
I just wish other people would cooperate though 'cause yeah you could satisfy those deepest desires if it only concerns you and you alone. But things get a whole lot more complicated if other people come into the picture. There should be a meeting of two deepest desires in order for ultimate satisfaction to work. Pursuing happiness at the expense of other people without sacrificing too much is one of the trickiest games we have to play so we have to be ultra-careful playing it.
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