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30 April 2007
28 April 2007
arouch
JTA Semester is killing me. Waaaaah. And to think I was late by 40 minutes for my Finance class today since I didn't wake up. Haay, why is it too hard for me to wake up so early and easily? Why do I always have to suffer from being late? But whining won't get me far so I'll just start change and step-up so I'd survive this. 11 weeks na lang, Bonjour Paris na! haha
Just a situation to think about. Mahal ka niya hindi dahil mahal ka niya kundi dahil mahal niya ang alaala ng taong minahal niya noon na ipinaaalala mo sa kanya. Sakit 'diba? Haha wala lang some thought just popped in my head after many hours of being idle in Ateneo.
Pero paano nga kaya 'no?
Just a situation to think about. Mahal ka niya hindi dahil mahal ka niya kundi dahil mahal niya ang alaala ng taong minahal niya noon na ipinaaalala mo sa kanya. Sakit 'diba? Haha wala lang some thought just popped in my head after many hours of being idle in Ateneo.
Pero paano nga kaya 'no?
19 April 2007
start some change now
Wow what a day can do. Yesterday, i was ranting about how I'm lacking extra-curricular activities and then boom! I have lots of things to do in my hands. Yay! At least, I won't feel as useless and pathetic as I felt yesterday. But that's just the easy part of it all as I have to fulfill all the tasks that will be assigned to me. And that's kinda shady right now. With the work experience I had last year, it seems that I might be having a hard time fulfilling all my duties. Tamaditis-stricken kasi eh. haha. But I promise and hope to change that. After all, I guess, I've found the organization which would motivate me and help me grow so much as a person.
It seems that some people think that they really cannot do anything now as mere students to change the world. I mean, they'll say that they need to wait and have money before they can actually help people. They want to graduate first and earn much before they could actually help. I mean it's some noble reason but here's a thought to ponder on. Could that money you earn in the future save somebody really needing help from today? Aanhin mo pa nga ang damo diba kung patay na ang kabayo?
The problem with today is that we belittle ourselves to having no capacity of sparking some change. We always think that people who have the capacity to change the world are those sitting atop political and social structures. But we're wrong. We have the power now. We just have to look around and take advantage of the opportunities surrounding us. As college students and future bigwigs of the country, we are encouraged to start sparking change in our small way now so that when our turn to lead comes, the spark has already blossomed into fire.
It seems that some people think that they really cannot do anything now as mere students to change the world. I mean, they'll say that they need to wait and have money before they can actually help people. They want to graduate first and earn much before they could actually help. I mean it's some noble reason but here's a thought to ponder on. Could that money you earn in the future save somebody really needing help from today? Aanhin mo pa nga ang damo diba kung patay na ang kabayo?
The problem with today is that we belittle ourselves to having no capacity of sparking some change. We always think that people who have the capacity to change the world are those sitting atop political and social structures. But we're wrong. We have the power now. We just have to look around and take advantage of the opportunities surrounding us. As college students and future bigwigs of the country, we are encouraged to start sparking change in our small way now so that when our turn to lead comes, the spark has already blossomed into fire.
18 April 2007
motivation
I got my schedule for my JTA 1st semester last Monday. It's kinda OK for me except that I'll be having my first evening class every Monday and I'll still be having Saturday classes. Ugh. But I'll only have 2 hours on Saturdays as compared to the 3 I had last semester so I hope I could handle this better. The subjects I'll be taking this semester aren't to be taken lightly as Brian informed me that these might be the hardest of my junior and senior year subjects. So I should really step it up now or else all of my efforts in the last year may just be wasted. Oh I hope I still survive...
The other thing bothering me lately is my lack of extra-curriculars. I mean, yeah, I do have some involvement in stuff but I believe it's not enough. Ugh I hate realizing the importance of extra-curriculars only recently since these are important for my future. I hope I can find some decent organization where I'd be motivated properly to be involved and excel in its endeavors. I think I'm already over the phase in my life which hindered me from being involved with more important stuff and I'm ready to get all involved once again. Let me channel my old self and get involved in organizations once again!
I talked to Samboy about extra-curriculars and the main problem I pointed out was my lack of motivation. I know it's wrong for me to blame the endeavors I'm joining for the lack of effort but for me, it does indeed play a role in my perseverance. I told him that if I do believe in the efforts of a project, I really do put effort in its activities. Take for example Pathways which I did not miss last semester since I really believed in its endeavors. Just like in ANI this summer where I rejoiced last Monday since I found out that I won't be missing any classes due to my class schedule. So what's the problem then? Why don't I have that much of motivation?
Maybe in my case, it really boils down to believing in the fulfillment and goals of the project. For if I believe something is worthwhile, then I put much effort in its activities. So my task now would be to find an organization which would make me believe that my time there will be worth it. And I pray that I'll find something soon since I badly want to work for something worthwhile.
The other thing bothering me lately is my lack of extra-curriculars. I mean, yeah, I do have some involvement in stuff but I believe it's not enough. Ugh I hate realizing the importance of extra-curriculars only recently since these are important for my future. I hope I can find some decent organization where I'd be motivated properly to be involved and excel in its endeavors. I think I'm already over the phase in my life which hindered me from being involved with more important stuff and I'm ready to get all involved once again. Let me channel my old self and get involved in organizations once again!
I talked to Samboy about extra-curriculars and the main problem I pointed out was my lack of motivation. I know it's wrong for me to blame the endeavors I'm joining for the lack of effort but for me, it does indeed play a role in my perseverance. I told him that if I do believe in the efforts of a project, I really do put effort in its activities. Take for example Pathways which I did not miss last semester since I really believed in its endeavors. Just like in ANI this summer where I rejoiced last Monday since I found out that I won't be missing any classes due to my class schedule. So what's the problem then? Why don't I have that much of motivation?
Maybe in my case, it really boils down to believing in the fulfillment and goals of the project. For if I believe something is worthwhile, then I put much effort in its activities. So my task now would be to find an organization which would make me believe that my time there will be worth it. And I pray that I'll find something soon since I badly want to work for something worthwhile.
17 April 2007
it has nothing to do with the past
The truth really really really hurts.
Ugh. life sucks. When will I ever learn???
Ugh. life sucks. When will I ever learn???
12 April 2007
note: reward yourself
Well, I so love today since I started the day so well. I got my grades and the thing which pumped me up so much was that I got a B in Accounting! Yeah, I know it's a B but Accounting is Accounting and the thin line between B and C+ dictates probation or no probation. So hallelujah I got a B since I won't be feeling the added pressure of having to always get a B. There's still that much needed breathing room and I thank God and the ever fantabulous and wonderful Dr. Ven Ibarra for that! May God always shower her with blessings! Well, I got a little disappointed with my Portuguese grade since it was the one I was most confident about that I'm going to ace it but no! B+ lang. Waah. But I just looked at it this way. It's better to have this scenario than having an A in Portuguese and a C+ in Accounting. Probe naman na ako nito noh. So it's really better to settle for the B+ and B scenario. Yay.
Oh my God you're so kaka. haha. I love you talaga! Iniwas mo ako na makakita ng ugly sight and you let me glimpse upon something I badly wanted. Even for just five seconds, I still tasted heaven. Haha. Grabe tumigil ang mundo ko at napatext agad kay Bamboy eh. Kaya nga I'd be a more artsy person this year eh. Diba Samboy? hehehe. As if that biatch reads this blog.
Well, after so much hulabaloo, we're going to Galera tomorrow since Monch and I don't have reg and Martin and Andrew don't have summer classes. Actually, we almost did not push through but we finally decided to go on with the plan and buy ourselves some time of relaxation. This is especially important for me since it serves as a reward for my grade and rest for the upcoming tumultuous JTA semester. Tama ba namang sabihin ni Brian that third and fourth years are easier except for three subjects. And coincidentally, those three subjects lang naman are part of my load for the next semester. So what does that mean for me? Patayan blues once again. Oh my, I want to work harder this time around so that the trip to France would be much more sweeter! After pain and suffering comes triumph and satisfaction nga diba?
Well, one lesson I might have learned over time is that you should reward yourself for a job well done from time to time. I mean even though the satisfaction you'd get seems very superficial and temporary, you're still giving yourself much needed glorification and rest. Rewarding yourself doesn't necessarily have to follow such a huge endeavor. It could be a simple test or chore or whatever. The important thing is that you give yourself some token of appreciation for getting over the things we need to tackle. Rewards keep us sane and keep us motivated. It aids us in going through the dizzying trials of life and keeps us ready for anything ahead. Of course, let us not let motivation strangle us so much that we're only doing things for the rewards they give. Ain't moderation the key?
So the next time you come from such harsh endeavors, don't forget to treat yourself to something that would satisfy your sole. You'll never know but if you keep on straining yourself, you might drain all of your energy and not enjoy the reward as much as you could've if you kept it at a more bearable pace.
Oh my God you're so kaka. haha. I love you talaga! Iniwas mo ako na makakita ng ugly sight and you let me glimpse upon something I badly wanted. Even for just five seconds, I still tasted heaven. Haha. Grabe tumigil ang mundo ko at napatext agad kay Bamboy eh. Kaya nga I'd be a more artsy person this year eh. Diba Samboy? hehehe. As if that biatch reads this blog.
Well, after so much hulabaloo, we're going to Galera tomorrow since Monch and I don't have reg and Martin and Andrew don't have summer classes. Actually, we almost did not push through but we finally decided to go on with the plan and buy ourselves some time of relaxation. This is especially important for me since it serves as a reward for my grade and rest for the upcoming tumultuous JTA semester. Tama ba namang sabihin ni Brian that third and fourth years are easier except for three subjects. And coincidentally, those three subjects lang naman are part of my load for the next semester. So what does that mean for me? Patayan blues once again. Oh my, I want to work harder this time around so that the trip to France would be much more sweeter! After pain and suffering comes triumph and satisfaction nga diba?
Well, one lesson I might have learned over time is that you should reward yourself for a job well done from time to time. I mean even though the satisfaction you'd get seems very superficial and temporary, you're still giving yourself much needed glorification and rest. Rewarding yourself doesn't necessarily have to follow such a huge endeavor. It could be a simple test or chore or whatever. The important thing is that you give yourself some token of appreciation for getting over the things we need to tackle. Rewards keep us sane and keep us motivated. It aids us in going through the dizzying trials of life and keeps us ready for anything ahead. Of course, let us not let motivation strangle us so much that we're only doing things for the rewards they give. Ain't moderation the key?
So the next time you come from such harsh endeavors, don't forget to treat yourself to something that would satisfy your sole. You'll never know but if you keep on straining yourself, you might drain all of your energy and not enjoy the reward as much as you could've if you kept it at a more bearable pace.
don't you want some variety?
What can a late afternoon nap coupled with caramel affogato cause you? Insomnia attack at a time you need sleep for the next day. Wow, I can't believe I'm pushing myself not to sleep tonight even though I need some rest. Well, based on my experience, it is actually better for me now to just wait for the sun to shine and go to school early rather than sleep. I have this tendency to oversleep and not be bothered much by alarm clocks so if I sleep tonight...impending disaster. haha. But I should learn on how to wake up to the wonderful ringing of my alarm clock since nobody's going to be waking me up once I'm abroad. It's all going to be me then and I don't want to screw up because I couldn't wake up on time. Ugh, why do I suffer from not being able to sleep at a short time and not waking up instantly? Why can't I switch those two around so that my sleeping and waking habits be so much better, right?
Oh I hate not catching sleep. It wrecks my body clock and obliges me to double my sleeping time for the next day. It's really hard to break something already established in your life since you need some adjustment and some moving after the discrepancy happens. Haha and I'm saying this thinking that I broke my academic year by joining the Junior Term Abroad program. One reason I could not sleep was that I was calculating how much I am obliged to overload in my fourth year. I surely don't want to have a fifth year so I'm praying that my calendar has already been fixed and that I'll graduate on March 2009. Ayayay, schedules...
Adapting to such new schedules, schemes and routines most of the time gets troublesome and tiring. I mean wouldn't you want to just stick to one routine for the rest of like school? Sometimes, it even gets more complicated that since you're stuck with your old routine, you always find it hard to catch up with your new one. Wouldn't it be better to always stick to one since you're body clock has already fully adjusted to it and it'll be such a breeze for you through the day knowing nothing has changed? But then again it would be so monotonous and boring that the only thing that hinders us from appearing as robots is that we don't have tin shells just as those robots have.
Given the choice between monotony and adaptation, I guess the latter is the better choice. Yes, monotony seems easier to deal with but you'll miss one of the essences of life that is variety. Adaptation deems more challenging for a short span of time but when you've gotten used to your new routine, it gratifies you much more than sticking to an old one. You've learned a new routine and you've gained much more lessons along the way instead of being sheltered by sticking to what you've always had.
So don't be afraid of change since it always brings something good to your life. At first, some events might seem to bring just nasty things but along the way, you'd realize that it gave you something worthwhile someway and somehow. At least, by engaging in and conquering new things, you experience the variety that life brings. You grow into a better person. A person you would be missing out if you stuck to your status quo.
Oh I hate not catching sleep. It wrecks my body clock and obliges me to double my sleeping time for the next day. It's really hard to break something already established in your life since you need some adjustment and some moving after the discrepancy happens. Haha and I'm saying this thinking that I broke my academic year by joining the Junior Term Abroad program. One reason I could not sleep was that I was calculating how much I am obliged to overload in my fourth year. I surely don't want to have a fifth year so I'm praying that my calendar has already been fixed and that I'll graduate on March 2009. Ayayay, schedules...
Adapting to such new schedules, schemes and routines most of the time gets troublesome and tiring. I mean wouldn't you want to just stick to one routine for the rest of like school? Sometimes, it even gets more complicated that since you're stuck with your old routine, you always find it hard to catch up with your new one. Wouldn't it be better to always stick to one since you're body clock has already fully adjusted to it and it'll be such a breeze for you through the day knowing nothing has changed? But then again it would be so monotonous and boring that the only thing that hinders us from appearing as robots is that we don't have tin shells just as those robots have.
Given the choice between monotony and adaptation, I guess the latter is the better choice. Yes, monotony seems easier to deal with but you'll miss one of the essences of life that is variety. Adaptation deems more challenging for a short span of time but when you've gotten used to your new routine, it gratifies you much more than sticking to an old one. You've learned a new routine and you've gained much more lessons along the way instead of being sheltered by sticking to what you've always had.
So don't be afraid of change since it always brings something good to your life. At first, some events might seem to bring just nasty things but along the way, you'd realize that it gave you something worthwhile someway and somehow. At least, by engaging in and conquering new things, you experience the variety that life brings. You grow into a better person. A person you would be missing out if you stuck to your status quo.
11 April 2007
chasing dreams
I'm going to get my card tomorrow and I'm hoping that I get the grades that I want although I'm OK if ever my professors give me something lower since that's the way they deem my performance for the semester. Ayayay, I just realized that I only have a week and a half to go before my first JTA semester. I'm sure it'll be one hell of a semester once again since Management subjects will come pouring in already. Oh I hope I still survive. Pray for me, guys and gals.
As usual, I visited my old tabulas blog which is chockful of wonderful entries I made around two years ago. Medyo natawa nga ako with one entry since it was about dreams and all. How come I didn't read that through my ordeal para I realized how low and dumb I got through those times. Haha. Anyway, as another entry goes, there's nothing better to do than to move on. And as usual, after reading some entries, I hope I get that same creative thoughts coming in. Go go go blogspot blog!
Speaking of dreams, I realized how dreams aren't as simply put as they are. One mustn't confuse realizable ones from those which will remain as dreams only. Some dreams, they really do come true if you work hard for them while some just won't be given to you even if you do everything you can. Simply put, some dreams are attainable while others are not. And we should always have a clear distinction which is which. For if we get confused, then we might find ourselves trying hard for something which is impossible to get or simply letting go of a dream which we can easily fulfill. Dreams, they motivate us much but we should be aware of their nature.
But sometimes, by some magical twist of fate, seemingly impossible dreams get realized. Yeah, fairy tales do happen and some live in the dream they thought they'd never realize. And these little stories should motivate us to also try for some seemingly impossible dreams to work out for we never know that it could actually come true. Again, sayang naman kung matutupad pala sana tapos hindi mo tinangkang kunin.
Some fairy tales come true and I'm hoping sometime soon, another one would come my way. =p
As usual, I visited my old tabulas blog which is chockful of wonderful entries I made around two years ago. Medyo natawa nga ako with one entry since it was about dreams and all. How come I didn't read that through my ordeal para I realized how low and dumb I got through those times. Haha. Anyway, as another entry goes, there's nothing better to do than to move on. And as usual, after reading some entries, I hope I get that same creative thoughts coming in. Go go go blogspot blog!
Speaking of dreams, I realized how dreams aren't as simply put as they are. One mustn't confuse realizable ones from those which will remain as dreams only. Some dreams, they really do come true if you work hard for them while some just won't be given to you even if you do everything you can. Simply put, some dreams are attainable while others are not. And we should always have a clear distinction which is which. For if we get confused, then we might find ourselves trying hard for something which is impossible to get or simply letting go of a dream which we can easily fulfill. Dreams, they motivate us much but we should be aware of their nature.
But sometimes, by some magical twist of fate, seemingly impossible dreams get realized. Yeah, fairy tales do happen and some live in the dream they thought they'd never realize. And these little stories should motivate us to also try for some seemingly impossible dreams to work out for we never know that it could actually come true. Again, sayang naman kung matutupad pala sana tapos hindi mo tinangkang kunin.
Some fairy tales come true and I'm hoping sometime soon, another one would come my way. =p
10 April 2007
holy week and deadly sins
Just got home from last night. haha. Slept over at Sam's since we finished around 2am. Marc, Sam and I commuted to Cookie's and it was an experience for me especially the lady who was blatantly arguing with the driver's assistant regarding the fare. Haha right back at you devious fare-cheaters! Arrived at Cookie's around an hour later and found out that she hadn't ordered food. So Marc and I just continued the Holy Week sacrifice and ate rice with just sabaw ng sinigang. How pitiful noh? haha. Anyway, pizza arrived before Macky as usual and Ralf came in around an hour later. Watched TV, Chitchat, played cards, asked my fortune from Macky and the spirit of the cards. Usual bumming. Haha. Arrived at Sam's home around 230 and stayed awake since the beych had something to do pa. So we slept around four after i watched something cool and yummy! haha. What a word to describe watching a video. Hayayay. When will i ever learn?
Anyway, I think i should concentrate more on the Bicol trip I had with the family. As evident with my multiply account, I got into my usual camwhoring mode and snapped shots like hell with my cousins. Didn't stay long under the sun and swam though since I really didn't want to get darker. (walang hihirit! oo na di na ako kaputian haha) You should try swimming in this pool in Bicol where the water is super duper cold. As in! I only lasted five minutes in it. Pero grabe my cousins, they lasted for hours. Haha. Well, iba talaga pag sensitive skin. hihi. Being the good boy that I am, I was the only one who got up at 3am for the salubong. It was like any other salubong I've watched before though. And the design of the place was better last year. Nakakagulat lang talaga since like every town in Bicol had that same structure eh I've never seen one here in Manila. Wala lang Oh well. Oh yeah, I really don't want to hear the song Smack That by Akon ever again. It was played like a million times in the van and my ears were close to bleeding from it! Seriously, I'll kill anyone who dare play that song! Haha. Anyhoo, Bicol, as usual, was fun!
Of course, Holy Week is reflecting time and I've reflected on my life especially the past year and a half which has been the most tumultuous ever. I'm glad it's nearing its end already since I never ever want to go through anything like that again. Just eats up a lot of your time and wastes your life so much. Hay if only I could learn it in an easier manner.
Thing is, I'm still on the search for my own resurrection. I know I'm getting there by taking one day at a time and taking away from my mind every little nightmare that has happened to me. I'm sure though that I'm not ready to forgive and forget since I don't see the logic and point in doing that. And that's coming from a person who doesn't really get angry at a person unless he or she does something so grave. And that was worse than any possible thing that could happen to me. That was the worst.
Anyway, I do hope that the coming months would spark more change inside me and that finally, finally, I'll be happier and better than the person I have been the past few months.
Anyway, I think i should concentrate more on the Bicol trip I had with the family. As evident with my multiply account, I got into my usual camwhoring mode and snapped shots like hell with my cousins. Didn't stay long under the sun and swam though since I really didn't want to get darker. (walang hihirit! oo na di na ako kaputian haha) You should try swimming in this pool in Bicol where the water is super duper cold. As in! I only lasted five minutes in it. Pero grabe my cousins, they lasted for hours. Haha. Well, iba talaga pag sensitive skin. hihi. Being the good boy that I am, I was the only one who got up at 3am for the salubong. It was like any other salubong I've watched before though. And the design of the place was better last year. Nakakagulat lang talaga since like every town in Bicol had that same structure eh I've never seen one here in Manila. Wala lang Oh well. Oh yeah, I really don't want to hear the song Smack That by Akon ever again. It was played like a million times in the van and my ears were close to bleeding from it! Seriously, I'll kill anyone who dare play that song! Haha. Anyhoo, Bicol, as usual, was fun!
Of course, Holy Week is reflecting time and I've reflected on my life especially the past year and a half which has been the most tumultuous ever. I'm glad it's nearing its end already since I never ever want to go through anything like that again. Just eats up a lot of your time and wastes your life so much. Hay if only I could learn it in an easier manner.
Thing is, I'm still on the search for my own resurrection. I know I'm getting there by taking one day at a time and taking away from my mind every little nightmare that has happened to me. I'm sure though that I'm not ready to forgive and forget since I don't see the logic and point in doing that. And that's coming from a person who doesn't really get angry at a person unless he or she does something so grave. And that was worse than any possible thing that could happen to me. That was the worst.
Anyway, I do hope that the coming months would spark more change inside me and that finally, finally, I'll be happier and better than the person I have been the past few months.
04 April 2007
ULTIMATE ASSHOLE
Grabe talaga kapag demonyo ang kausap mo. Usapan niyo mag-uusap kayo ng gabi. Darating siya ng ala una ng umaga na tapos tutulugan ka pa ng alas dos. And to think na naligo pa in between noon. Grabe, hindi man lang inisip iyong pinaghintay mo mula gabi before that eh ikaw mismo antok na antok ka na rin.
Tapos kanina sasabihing be right back tapos hindi na bumalik. As usual, parang tanga ka na namang maghihintay tapos hindi talaga darating. Kapag itext mo naman hindi man lang magrereply. Grabe talaga ang kapal ng mukha nitong demonyong 'to.
Akala mo naman kasi siya lang 'yung may karapatan sa oras. Hoy tanga, may oras din kaya akong sinusunod. Ang kapal kasi ng mukha mo e. Grabe, sana talaga mamatay ka na. Kasi 'yun lang 'yung gusto kong mangyari ngayon.
MAMATAY KA NA AT BUMALIK SA IMPYERNONG PINANGGALINGAN MO!!!!
Tapos kanina sasabihing be right back tapos hindi na bumalik. As usual, parang tanga ka na namang maghihintay tapos hindi talaga darating. Kapag itext mo naman hindi man lang magrereply. Grabe talaga ang kapal ng mukha nitong demonyong 'to.
Akala mo naman kasi siya lang 'yung may karapatan sa oras. Hoy tanga, may oras din kaya akong sinusunod. Ang kapal kasi ng mukha mo e. Grabe, sana talaga mamatay ka na. Kasi 'yun lang 'yung gusto kong mangyari ngayon.
MAMATAY KA NA AT BUMALIK SA IMPYERNONG PINANGGALINGAN MO!!!!
03 April 2007
red at five
I just had so much fun today. That's all. Bow. Haha. Well, Macky's sports day was so fun! I got to play with friends once again and I even saw Mike, Miggy, Cheska and Ice again after such a long time. Well, after playing, some people decided to drink at guess what...430 in the afternoon! So napasubo naman ako and i took some shots. Since hindi ako sanay ng dire-diretso at matagal na akong hindi nakainom, namula na naman ako ng todo kanina. Haha buti nalang nagcommute ako pauwi since I had to fix myself up or people would easily notice my not-so-wonderful state. But no, when i got home, my cousins easily detected my alcohol intake and i warned them not tell anyone. Haha. Of course, they followed me. Buti na lang din pala, their mom arrived and she treated us to dinner! I really had to fix up since it would be totally embarrassing to act foolishly in front of her. So there, nawala na after dinner ang sakit ng ulo! Whattaexperience!
Haay it's that same old feeling again of creative juices squeezed out to the drop. Ugh, I blame academics for this creative brain cell overkill! Now, all I do with my blog is to rant and narrate what has been happening in my life. And I don't want that. Well, kinda minimal lang but I so desire to bring back my golden days when I'd put up something decent. Oh my, oh my. Well, I hope tomorrow's trip to Bicol would help me reflect much on life.
Haay it's that same old feeling again of creative juices squeezed out to the drop. Ugh, I blame academics for this creative brain cell overkill! Now, all I do with my blog is to rant and narrate what has been happening in my life. And I don't want that. Well, kinda minimal lang but I so desire to bring back my golden days when I'd put up something decent. Oh my, oh my. Well, I hope tomorrow's trip to Bicol would help me reflect much on life.
02 April 2007
keep it to yourselves
At long last, summer! Although I've had my summer when everyone has already gone to places to chill and relax already. Grabehan ang law eh, hanggang sabado ba naman! Anyway, I'm just thankful that it's that giggly feeling of worrying about nothing again. I really want to just bum around this April as the 23rd would mean back to school once again. Hayayay. But it's ok since I'll end in July and then it'll be FFFRANCE for me! haha.
I'm planning on writing some short-story this summer. I hope I actually accomplish it and come up with some respectable stuff. When it comes to writing, I'm weaker when it comes to delivery than thought. It's more of having some good plot but I just cannot express it with beautiful words. Oh I hope I could pull this off.
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Ugh. Seriously, I'm sick and tired of having to put up with people talking about the devil when I'm around. It's like there's all there is to me sometimes since the topic always centers upon the effing asshole. Yes, it is OK for me for you to talk about the devil but can't you do that like some other place or at some other time? It's still hard for me since there's this anger which boils inside me every time I hear something about the devil. Nothing is OK between us and the traumatic experience I've gone through still haunts me till now. So please? Can we not talk about nasty stuff when I'm around?
I'm planning on writing some short-story this summer. I hope I actually accomplish it and come up with some respectable stuff. When it comes to writing, I'm weaker when it comes to delivery than thought. It's more of having some good plot but I just cannot express it with beautiful words. Oh I hope I could pull this off.
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Ugh. Seriously, I'm sick and tired of having to put up with people talking about the devil when I'm around. It's like there's all there is to me sometimes since the topic always centers upon the effing asshole. Yes, it is OK for me for you to talk about the devil but can't you do that like some other place or at some other time? It's still hard for me since there's this anger which boils inside me every time I hear something about the devil. Nothing is OK between us and the traumatic experience I've gone through still haunts me till now. So please? Can we not talk about nasty stuff when I'm around?
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