I got my schedule for my JTA 1st semester last Monday. It's kinda OK for me except that I'll be having my first evening class every Monday and I'll still be having Saturday classes. Ugh. But I'll only have 2 hours on Saturdays as compared to the 3 I had last semester so I hope I could handle this better. The subjects I'll be taking this semester aren't to be taken lightly as Brian informed me that these might be the hardest of my junior and senior year subjects. So I should really step it up now or else all of my efforts in the last year may just be wasted. Oh I hope I still survive...
The other thing bothering me lately is my lack of extra-curriculars. I mean, yeah, I do have some involvement in stuff but I believe it's not enough. Ugh I hate realizing the importance of extra-curriculars only recently since these are important for my future. I hope I can find some decent organization where I'd be motivated properly to be involved and excel in its endeavors. I think I'm already over the phase in my life which hindered me from being involved with more important stuff and I'm ready to get all involved once again. Let me channel my old self and get involved in organizations once again!
I talked to Samboy about extra-curriculars and the main problem I pointed out was my lack of motivation. I know it's wrong for me to blame the endeavors I'm joining for the lack of effort but for me, it does indeed play a role in my perseverance. I told him that if I do believe in the efforts of a project, I really do put effort in its activities. Take for example Pathways which I did not miss last semester since I really believed in its endeavors. Just like in ANI this summer where I rejoiced last Monday since I found out that I won't be missing any classes due to my class schedule. So what's the problem then? Why don't I have that much of motivation?
Maybe in my case, it really boils down to believing in the fulfillment and goals of the project. For if I believe something is worthwhile, then I put much effort in its activities. So my task now would be to find an organization which would make me believe that my time there will be worth it. And I pray that I'll find something soon since I badly want to work for something worthwhile.
The other thing bothering me lately is my lack of extra-curriculars. I mean, yeah, I do have some involvement in stuff but I believe it's not enough. Ugh I hate realizing the importance of extra-curriculars only recently since these are important for my future. I hope I can find some decent organization where I'd be motivated properly to be involved and excel in its endeavors. I think I'm already over the phase in my life which hindered me from being involved with more important stuff and I'm ready to get all involved once again. Let me channel my old self and get involved in organizations once again!
I talked to Samboy about extra-curriculars and the main problem I pointed out was my lack of motivation. I know it's wrong for me to blame the endeavors I'm joining for the lack of effort but for me, it does indeed play a role in my perseverance. I told him that if I do believe in the efforts of a project, I really do put effort in its activities. Take for example Pathways which I did not miss last semester since I really believed in its endeavors. Just like in ANI this summer where I rejoiced last Monday since I found out that I won't be missing any classes due to my class schedule. So what's the problem then? Why don't I have that much of motivation?
Maybe in my case, it really boils down to believing in the fulfillment and goals of the project. For if I believe something is worthwhile, then I put much effort in its activities. So my task now would be to find an organization which would make me believe that my time there will be worth it. And I pray that I'll find something soon since I badly want to work for something worthwhile.
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