Saturdays are just too tiring for me. The Law and NSTP combo just seems too much for me to handle that I always end up sleeping so early in the evening then wake up like a little before or past midnight. When I woke up tonight, I really thought it was morning already and that I've slept for quite a long time then but no, it was just around 11:30 and the day hasn't changed yet. Oh well, at least I can do some academic tasks today since workload is just too much for me this coming week. There's just lots and lots that I hope I end up doing them all on time and with the best possible outcome I could muster.
Just to share, we had this picnic yesterday afternoon at the Bellarmine field. As usual, Miguel Armando was late for something he organized. Never trust Miguel Armando to come early on occasions like those 'cause he has always something to go to before going to the thing he organized. What a beych. haha. Anyway, I was really so tired that I laid out Miguel Armando's shirt that Anna Patricia used for their SOM photo shoot and Miguel Armando's bag which contained his laptop in order that I have some layer to shield me from the grass. While I was lying down, I just looked up the sky and got amazed at this vast empty blue space that was before me. I got so relaxed looking at the sky that for just a few moments, I've forgotten the stress and the problems which have been hounding me the past couple weeks. As usual, I craved for that moment times after 'cause I really want to get out of all the mess that I've been shoved into and have a better and brighter life. Maybe that's why I want to go JTA so that I could, at least for four months, get away from all the problems in my life and try to live a life seemingly better than the one I have here.
Well, Jacqueline and I interviewed this girl for our Theology project today. It was the typical story of a struggling teen with a melancholic background yet still striving for hope and excellence founded upon education and the many gifts thrust upon her. Well, the part which I remember the most was how her friends would help her financially just to get through Pathways. I've been volunteering for Pathways for almost a year already and I've been accustomed to the way of life these kids have. It actually entails sacrifice from these kids yet they always still go just to have a crack at better education and better life. Love the determination of the Pathways teens actually 'cause it's something you don't usually find with people who are better off. I'm sorry to be generalizing but I honestly feel that that's the case. Sometimes, the determination is just not there for better-off people 'cause they know they still have a fall-back of some sort if they fall along the way. Well, they never actually realize that it might actually be the cause of a fall so hard to recover from. People right now should change at how they look at responsibilities and have the fire in them to accomplish their goal.
Another thing is that I envy the girl we interviewed today 'cause of her friends. I mean her friends seem to be always their for her and makes some way to maneuver her around her problems. I know mine might be harder to deal with but I always find myself alone in this never-ending battle. I know my friends actually do help but sometimes, I feel like it's not enough. I sometimes feel like I've got no worth since nobody wants to fight for me. I just need people to be there and to defend me right now 'cause everything that's happening is just too much for me. My dignity and self-esteem are getting trampled more each and everyday and yet, nobody's there to help me with my troubles. Where are saviors when you need them?
Just to share, we had this picnic yesterday afternoon at the Bellarmine field. As usual, Miguel Armando was late for something he organized. Never trust Miguel Armando to come early on occasions like those 'cause he has always something to go to before going to the thing he organized. What a beych. haha. Anyway, I was really so tired that I laid out Miguel Armando's shirt that Anna Patricia used for their SOM photo shoot and Miguel Armando's bag which contained his laptop in order that I have some layer to shield me from the grass. While I was lying down, I just looked up the sky and got amazed at this vast empty blue space that was before me. I got so relaxed looking at the sky that for just a few moments, I've forgotten the stress and the problems which have been hounding me the past couple weeks. As usual, I craved for that moment times after 'cause I really want to get out of all the mess that I've been shoved into and have a better and brighter life. Maybe that's why I want to go JTA so that I could, at least for four months, get away from all the problems in my life and try to live a life seemingly better than the one I have here.
Well, Jacqueline and I interviewed this girl for our Theology project today. It was the typical story of a struggling teen with a melancholic background yet still striving for hope and excellence founded upon education and the many gifts thrust upon her. Well, the part which I remember the most was how her friends would help her financially just to get through Pathways. I've been volunteering for Pathways for almost a year already and I've been accustomed to the way of life these kids have. It actually entails sacrifice from these kids yet they always still go just to have a crack at better education and better life. Love the determination of the Pathways teens actually 'cause it's something you don't usually find with people who are better off. I'm sorry to be generalizing but I honestly feel that that's the case. Sometimes, the determination is just not there for better-off people 'cause they know they still have a fall-back of some sort if they fall along the way. Well, they never actually realize that it might actually be the cause of a fall so hard to recover from. People right now should change at how they look at responsibilities and have the fire in them to accomplish their goal.
Another thing is that I envy the girl we interviewed today 'cause of her friends. I mean her friends seem to be always their for her and makes some way to maneuver her around her problems. I know mine might be harder to deal with but I always find myself alone in this never-ending battle. I know my friends actually do help but sometimes, I feel like it's not enough. I sometimes feel like I've got no worth since nobody wants to fight for me. I just need people to be there and to defend me right now 'cause everything that's happening is just too much for me. My dignity and self-esteem are getting trampled more each and everyday and yet, nobody's there to help me with my troubles. Where are saviors when you need them?
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